2011 Time

Happy New Year! I was reading an article that said instead of having resolutions at New Years we should set a Theme for the coming year... My Theme is going to be TIME... Spending more time doing the things I love, with the people I love. Being more aware of the time I am wasting and being more appreciative of the time I have by making the most of it! 2011 - TIME   What's your theme for 2011?

Tut Inspirations Messages just for you!

The dream at night is just like the dream of here and now, Jenifer. You hide from yourself that you create it so that it can seem real, while you pretend not to be who you already are, so that you can finally get what you already have, for fun.

These are the kinds of messages you will get when you sign up for tut.com e-mails.

1000 is a lot.

Oh! I've been reading this new blog (ok, new to me) 1000 reasons why I'm a crap mom. Love this chic, although I'm sad that it appears her overbearing mother has made her feel like a crap mom, the blog is hilarious and I love her cute (strikeout), fabulous use of the classic strikeout! Although now, I want to use the strike out but will feel the need to reference her every time. But I won't cause I'm a crap blogger... what' plagiarism... hmm 1000 reasons why I'm a crap blogger... maybe

Small House, Big house

As we prepare for the move into our "big" house our little house has gone downhill fast. Flooring, paint and paper samples are littered throughout the kitchen. The computer desk is buried in house bills, constructions bills, quotes and notes from the interior design class I decided I HAD to take right now. What was once our beautiful pub style dinning room table is now my personal art centre. Did I mention I recently decided that I needed to "find" myself. In the midst of building a house, coordinating contractors, planning our move, emptying a warehouse and managing a small company. Yep, cause that's just how I roll.

Our little house is small, especially with the recent influx of memorabilia that was left to me by my late grandparents. Lots of stuff, 1 of our extra bedrooms is filled to the ceiling and we double the volume inside the house. Plus our contractor has 1/2 a shed full in storage for us and my parents 2 car garage, basement, 1/2 an attic and 1/2 a barn are all full of my inheritance. The sale of their house was rather fast, so most everything got thrown in a box labeled and shipped. I'm actually really excited to start sorting through it all. But am even more excited to get my office set up! A space that is mine alone, with a door that can close out all noise in the house so that I can..... think and write and create beautiful wonderful things that maybe no one else will understand, except my mom will pretend to even if she doesn't because that's what mom's do.

Searching Questioning Activating

I reached out to some artists recently to ask for help. They asked me to explain to them what it was I needed. I did not know how to reply. So I explained...I want to learn, I'm searching, I don't know what I'm looking for. I am confident I will know what it is when I find it.

I was happy with this answer.

At this very moment I am a writer because I am writing a blog. Words can hold so much weight. A writer? Where were you trained? What have you published? WHO ARE YOU?

I am Jen, what I do is irrelevant... it is not who I am.

I am excited... terribly fantastically excited by life, love and all the wonderful experiences that await me.

I recently attended a digital media workshop, to learn about editing film. I did learn about editing, but I learned so much more from the instructor in a single conversation. I had just commented on how I did not think I wanted to be an editor. That I had enjoyed learning about it and was happy that now I could rule it out as a career choice. He understood and suggested that even though I might not enjoy it as a career, it was fun to play around with all of the different effects in video. To this I replied "Its not really the type of thing I would do just for fun."

Later that night I thought about what types of things I would do... for fun. I had no answer. I don't do many things just for fun, I do them to serve a purpose.. to earn a living, move a project forward, develop and idea... I do next to nothing just for fun. This struck me as... not really wrong, but definitely not right.

So the next day at class, I told him. And he agreed, that did warrant some pondering, and searching. I liked this editor, Boyd Bonitzke. He was a good teacher, he got me to think about something I wasn't looking at.

Maybe the searching is over now. I know the things I want to learn and the work I want to do. I have set the goals, in all their Lucida Console glory saved to a basic notepad file in my Jenifer folder. Actually I guess I am working on one now. I had thought I was just procrastinating, but upon close inspection goal no 5. "Write Stuff" has clearly been started.